I am a woman and my male friend and I have been friends for 8 years. For a few years we had fallen into a pattern of cuddling on my or his bed, something that made me uncomfortable, because I don’t really like cuddling, and I had told him that, but he didn’t seem to take it seriously and I didn’t know how to make him take it seriously. To be honest, I began dreading him coming over to my house or vice-versa. I had also told him about me being asexual, and had made no secret of my disinterest in a romantic relationship with anyone.
I noticed he was more invested in our relationship than I was, wanting to see me more, and also that he would get into a bad mood whenever I would make an allusion to my sexual orientation. So I was not that surprised when he told me he loved me last December. Since I don’t return his feelings, we have tried to remain friends, and I have taken the occasion to stop the cuddling and other uncomfortable touching (which was not easy since he tried to convince me we could continue).
Things are really tense between us. We were staying at a hotel with two of my (female) friends, and he got upset with me because he felt I ignored him, because I was talking to my friend and didn’t answer his question immediately. His attitude really put a damper on everyone’s mood that night, and my best friend stayed awake half the night because she was trying to stop my crying. He can also get upset because I don’t follow his advice. For example when I insisted on leaving a tip at a restaurant (with MY money), he told me “I already told you you don’t have to do that!” and when I started to defend myself, he walked away, after saying that I was the one making discussion impossible.
When we are with other friends of mine he often doesn’t talk at all, to the point I was relieved when he said he wouldn’t come to an outing, because I had been worried he would make things uncomfortable. He also often complains that he’s lonely and that I’m his only friend, which makes me ill at ease, and we had an argument about how I can’t take the stress of being his only emotional comfort.
The point is, I don’t feel comfortable with him anymore, but sometimes I feel like I am being too sensitive and looking for a reason to be upset with him, because things would be easier for me if I could just stop seeing him because he had offended me, so I would be ‘in the right’. But we have been friends for a long time, and I don’t actually want to hurt him, because he seems already in a bad place… My parents have pointed out I am often upset or irritated when I’ve just seen him, and I really don’t know what to do or if our friendship is worth saving, so could you share your thoughts on my situation?
I am grateful for your help,
Upset And Confused