TL;DR: used to be a nerdy loser, recently got my life together because of my fiancé, tempted to use my newfound powers.
I’ve been stuck in this strange situation for some time and I’m trying to figure my way out of it. To cut a long story short, I’m 33. I spent the majority of my life as a frustrated, overweight, overworked, nerd.
At one of the lowest points in my life, I found a girl. At the time, my dad was terminally ill, I’d left my job (I couldn’t cope with the stress of him being sick), and I was really depressed. I was 26 with no job, no family (my mom and I don’t get along). The one thing I had going for me was that I had some really good friends to help me through it.
After he died, this girl was there for me. We dated shortly after his funeral, and truthfully things turned around. She helped me get into therapy, and after a little while I was able to land my dream job.
Fast forward 7 years and since that point, life has panned out great. I’ve been able to afford to buy my own apartment (all from being promoted from that job at the company), dental braces, a new car and let’s just say, life worked out from that real low point. During lockdown, I proposed to my girlfriend and I thought life would be set.
My problem started after lockdown. I’ve started to go out a lot more to hang out with friends, which now also includes clubs and bars with work colleagues. On several occasions I’ve been at bars, and women have made passes at me. Not only that, but I feel like I’ve gotten noticed a lot more in the last year compared to the entirety of my 20s.
I admit I’ve glowed up, I’m happy with my life. But the thoughts keep coming in: “I need to make up for lost time”, “I need to make up for lost experiences”, “I need to take advantage of my glow up”.
No matter how hard I try, the thoughts keep coming in. Do I act on them? And if I don’t, have I missed out on my golden years? After almost 10 years of sadness, wouldn’t it just make sense to test it out?
I never had any success with women growing up. That whole time, I longed to have the superficial things to make me more successful with women. Now I have those things, and I can’t use them.
Help Doc! It’s like the Lord’s Prayer:
Lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from evil.
All Glowed Up